I’ve got a lot going on all at once. To name a few things, we closed on our house this week (yay homeowners!), started meeting with contractors for renovations, and currently have a loved one in the hospital. And that’s not even the half of it. 

To make matters more complicated, I’ve got my own health issues going on in the midst of all of this, which have left me with the worst fatigue of my life. Even small, menial tasks seem monumental these days. 

If I could go to bed at 8 p.m. every night, I would. Instead, I try to hold out till 9 p.m. I’ve never been a person who could nap, let alone fall asleep on the couch. Now, I do both like it’s my job. You’d think a relaxing week in Florida would have curbed this a bit, but my exhaustion hasn’t let up. 

As you can imagine, things have fallen by the wayside in an effort to just get through the day. Daily 30-minute workouts? Nope. Home-cooked dinners throughout the week? Maybe twice, if I’m lucky.  

But my time in the Word is really where I feel lacking these days. My morning devotionals have been cut down from two to one, bringing my total quiet time spent with God in the morning from 30 minutes to maybe 10. On top of that, AJ and I have taken a hiatus from our Bible study recently and I haven’t been to my girls Bible Study in two weeks due to travel. Therefore my evenings spent in the Word are pretty nonexistent as well. 

All of this has resulted in me feeling pretty guilty. Here, I’ve been blessed beyond measure and yet the most I can muster up in return is a daily devotional and prayer before bed. I say I’m going to do more tomorrow, but then tomorrow comes and I feel like I’ve been hit by a bus all over again. I feel physically and mentally weak.

Luckily, my heart isn’t in agreement and because of that, I believe the Holy Spirit brought Alexandra Hoover’s words to my attention today. Hoover wrote to her 14K followers on Tuesday, “Give God your not enough and watch Him do exceedingly, abundantly more.” She elaborated referencing the call of Gideon in Judges Chapter 6, that God doesn’t look at what we don’t have; He looks at what we do have. 

“A willingness to live a life surrendered. A desire to give Him the glory,” she wrote. “Our small strength will partner with God’s matchless ability. That’s the power available to us when we bind ourselves to God.”

I may not be doing the most, but I’m still showing up in some capacity and God is meeting me where I am. He will always meet me where I am because I am His; because He sees my exhaustion; because He cares for me; because He knows my heart. 

So here’s your reminder that you’re doing enough by simply showing up. Even if your knees are shaking and your soul is tired, keep walking friend. He’ll meet you right where you are.